I come on here every so often to jot down thoughts that I'm sure are groundbreaking, mind blowing, and so deep that people will be stunned.
I know what you're thinking! "there's nothing groundbreaking here...there never is!"
That's true. I don't disagree.
I write them on a draft, let them marinate, and come back a month or so later.
That's when I realize they aren't groundbreaking, they wouldn't astonish people's minds, and sometimes they are even quite shallow. Therefore, I let them sit and hope that someday I can change them enough to be an acceptably okay-ish post.

I currently have more than ten drafts of half written posts that I decided were too terrible to see the light of day, but had too much time invested in to delete.

Today, I realized that my most "recent" post was from LAST FEBRUARY. Like, of last year. As in, more than eighteen months ago. And the best part is that it was during Clason's miserable sleep regression and I talked about going crazy, then never updated it. People who are interested enough to look can go and check it out, see the date, and think, "Oh, she literally did go crazy and never came back. She's wandering around on the moors somewhere hearing voices in her head and hoping for solutions. This was her last post EVER."

While parts of that may be accurate, not all of it is. I didn't go completely crazy, and I didn't leave all I have known to recover. Clason eventually went back to sleeping through the night, after some intense sleep training that lasted all of...a week. Maybe two. When he hit six months we decided enough was enough, he was getting his own room, and then we did the whole "cry it out in small doses while we comfort you as much as possible in increasing increments" method.

Turns out it was effective. It also turns out that babies go through multiple sleep regressions, and even once they are toddlers (which mine is now, because that's how long ago I posted), they still wake you up consistently at night. And this is coming from the mom of a pretty good sleeper. (Also, don't you love that that's one of the biggest descriptors of a baby? "Is he a good sleeper???" if you say yes, you get nods and smiles and people secretly think you have it easy. Cause having a newborn isn't difficult at ALL if they sleep for three hours at a time.)

Anyways. I just wanted to put up a brief update that was not about me being crazy. (Or is it...?)

One day soon, maybe even this calendar year, I will complete a post and throw it into my drafts, let it steep, then decide it's good enough to see the light of day. I may even put up a terrible one, because, I can. Mostly, I'm just popping in to say that this blog is a dormant volcano, and you never know when it will explode with activity, posts, and remarkable mediocrity.


See you again at an undisclosed date in the possibly near future.